To A Healthy New Year

Eat Me

Cleanse…2012 will be cleaner :)

“If it clings to life that hard, it deserves to live.”

That was Papa yesterday about a spider I was trying to get him to kill while we were washing the Cadillac. (It hasn’t been washed or even driven in months) After he smacked it with a wet wash cloth and put it back in the bucket we couldn’t find the spider. I was mad and scared. I’ve never seen a spider like that before. It was small but had a fat yellow/orange body. I would have killed it myself if it weren’t for me wearing flip flops.

So we went on washing and I see the stupid spider slowly crawling from under my car in the soapy freezing water. It actually looked more like it was pulling itself along. Like someone who is paralyzed from the waist down using only their arms to get along. I was impressed that it was still alive and told my dad to come look. He thought I meant for him to finally kill it, so he told me to just leave it alone. I did. For a second. Then I thought of the possibility of the spider harming me. So I blasted some more freezing water onto the concrete, just in case :) The end…My intentions were not to go into detail, but oh, well!

I just wanted to mention I finally read the book Families and Other Nonreturnable Gifts. I’ve had it since me & Adam were in Colorado. I miss spending that time with him. Hopefully I can go with him on another mission soon :) I picked this book (and For One More Day which I finished while in CO) because this last year I’ve gone through a lot with my family. We’ve been through a lot together. And I thought these books would make me appreciate them more. Which it has, but I still want to kill them every once in a while. That’s normal. Correct?

Well I forgot how nice it could be just hanging out with Papa. He’s going to be having a Birthday/New Years party that he’s really looking forward to. It seems to me he is coming out of his little funk, and I’m happy to be a part of it.

Found this in the garage. Lucky me :) (Taken with Pose)

Don’t you sometimes wish there was a lifeguard that watched out for you. Letting you know what’s safe and what’s not. Blowing the whistle if you started to swim the wrong way. Telling you if you did that again you’d be kicked out of the pool. And making you start walking from where you started running if you were caught. But what fun would that be?

I’m yet again in one of those moods. I need to get away. And by that I don’t mean gone. But that might have to do for now. I wish Wednesday would come sooner.

Ethos

August 8, 2011 / Suisun City, CA

Self Portrait. Taken & Edited only with iPhone 4

Half Moon Bay, CA

Stephanie Hilyer

Academy of Art University, San Francisco, CA

#whites #laundry #fashion (Taken with instagram)

#sideview #mirror #Fairfield # CA (Taken with Instagram at Yo Sushi - Fairfield)

“Can’t Seem to Shake You”

Today was another ‘new beginning’ for me. I decided to delete my previous blogs and start all over. This happens often, actually, it’s like a cleansing of the soul ;)

I came across some posts that were about my 2 1/2 year long relationship that ended almost a year ago. How I hated how he treated me but how much I loved to be with him. For some reason I couldn’t delete those immediately, I had to read through it again. It was a reminder to never do that again.

I made a quick run to the library and picked up two books. I’ve only read Wakefield from All The Time In The World by E.L. Doctorow so far. I wonder if the rest of the stories in this book will be as bizarre as this one.

“Anyone could do that, anyone could run away; he could go as far as he could go and still be the same person…”

Sometimes the crappiest of phones can even make art.

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John S Lens, Pistil Film, No Flash, Taken with Hipstamatic